because you're no longer by my side

Just realized that I haven't updated my blog for more than a month. And now I'm updating it using the ipad(one of the many changes in recent times)...well,I've been working so that takes my mind off things also. But as every working adult will tell you,working life is not easy(that's already an understatement because I have actually already broken down because of work)...but that aside,today itself is quite a good day! Won at mahjong and uncle Winston got me another coach bag! YES!!! Another bag to use! Because of that bag,my mum suddenly brought up that she has a Burberry bag kept in the upper cabinets that she thinks I should take and use. Quite out of the blue but no difference to me. My colleague has already been making a bit of 'whoa' and 'ah' because I recently started using the miu miu bag which I found in my wardrobe...

the weather these few days suck so badly. i mean now that it's time for me to enjoy the much deserved holidays,it's raining every afternoon. wtf lurh! anyway today went to watch You Are The Apple Of My Eye with Nigel,quite good. i think it'll be even better than Breaking Dawn that we will watch on friday:p since nigel came to fetch me from my mani pedi,i think the manicurist thinks that nigel is my boyfriend(what's new?). after coming home,mum saw that i had a watch on,and i told her it was nigel's. so she thinks i should probably just take and use it since it suits me(seriously considering her suggestion)...

BASTARD! JUST WHEN I WAS SO HAPPY THEN I SAW YOUR PHOTOS. BLOODY LIAR! NOW I FOUND THE REASON FOR THE RECENT SITUATION. TO HELL WITH YOU! COMPLETELY SPOILED MY DAY!

studying with angie today was so funny! i never laughed so much in such a long time. saw quite a few people too,there was serena leong,but obviously me and angie didn't acknowledge her and she didn't acknowledge us either. then there was also yang er! of course we said hi:D and lastly there was david hu and 2 other of his friends,but only david acknowledge angie. they later moved to sit 2 tables away from us. david hu is like mattias, just that david is in track, much hotter, richer and fluent in french, ie, david hu wins matt hands down! haha! i'm so evil to matt. oh well,not like he'll see my blog! lol! then me and angie were debating between david ho and david hu, but obviously david hu won...the 2 of us were planning a lot of things to do after exams(when we're all in singapore), and laughing non stop! i think we disturbed a lot of people,but i guess that's ac spirit cause the 3 boys were like that too! wahahahaha! 

this is why i love angie:D

how much do your friends' opinions affect the decisions and choices you make?

everybody knows that my dad dotes on me the most,so 2 months ago,when it happened,everyone was most worried about me. but to date,i'm the only who hasn't dreamt of him. everybody in this house,my brother,mother and the maid has dreamt of him in the past 2 months at least once each. every night i sleep in his place,next to my mum and flashbacks of the events in the first week of july always happens. but even as i cry to sleep every night for the past 2 months,he has never appeared in my dreams to talk to me,or even just for me to see him...

when i met with angie last week,we had a little chat over lunch. and her words suddenly dawn on me that friends really can make or break you. and just for that,may i just say that i'm grateful for the wonderful friends i have around me. the easiest comparison would be between me and yuky. we both were in the same primary school(ATS) and secondary school(CG),but look at how different we are now. may i just add that in pri sch she was in the smartest class with nigel and i was 2 classes away from her? about 80% of the girls from CG are in the top5 JCs,studying so hard just so that they can survive in today's society,but then,there are that handful that somehow drift away from the norm. maybe it's their choice,but i strongly believe that friends can impact your life(present and future) significantly...

for many reasons, i haven't had time to blog. but one thing's for sure, a lot of things around me have changed. and i'm included. it wasn't a choice, it just happened. 

I need somebody to hold me tightly so that I can cry hard and long, in hope that I won't cry again after doing so...

wah,been too long since i last blogged properly cause there has been too many things ongoing simultaneously and it's seriously taking a toll on me...according to ethel, i've been looking 'very fragile' in school,which isn't very good. hm,maybe that's why mattias hasn't been bugging me that much considering he even wished me good luck before math(which btw i'm going to fail along with my other h2s). anyhow,i hope i don't appear fragile at home. screw my image in school,that's the least of my concern now. but i'm seriously at a loss,and even my friends who know are all worried about me. the girls in class aside, Joel even asked my brother how i was when they met at the school gym. their encounter was a complete joke which made me laughed but Joel felt bad. keke!!! anyhow,it seems i'm not in the mood to blog now either:(